so lame till draw tis..
oso nt nice, haiz..

2day's training was horrible oso..
in a freaking bad mood..
dunno y..
come hm start to scold every1 i c,
my bro, my mum, my dad, my sister, threw her file hard on the floor in front of her n my parents,
dunno wat's wrg with miie..
i feel i gonna breakdown soon,
explode 1st then break.
rly rly stress le..
n all these tests...
geo...
ss....
chem...
english spelling non stop...
bio...
ARGHS!!!
I RLY WAN FLUNK ALL OF THEM..
i rly wan cry...
i rly cannot take it anymore...
i dun wan go training..
i dun wan to study...
i dun wan
i dun wan
i dun wan.....
i hate tis world..
its driven by status, intelligence, wealth,
everything we FUCKING singaporeans do is study, cuz we kia su wat?!
STUDY = GD FUTURE = MONEY = RICH = GD STATUS = CAN HAO LIAN?!
wat is tis cycle...
haiz....
every1 is forcing miie to do things..
FUCKING chinese teacher, keep say i lazy dun wan learn,
i no interest, of cuz no motivation n drive to go learn wat!
keep say i lazy or wat shit..
pls...
i jz dun wan to listen anymore...
hw much i jz wan to stop everything...
hw much i jz wan to slp n nvr wake up again...
hw much i wish i was nvr both to tis world.......
i'm goin crazy soon..
my head hurts..
frm all the tests...
subjects..
my heart hurts..
cuz i'm always so horrid to ppl,
n at the end of the day,
i jz wan to treat them rite,
but i jz cant do it, jz too tired then in a bad n pissed mood..
n i noe i'm gonna disappoint alot of ppl..
my teachers..
my coach..
my aunts....
i noe i suck at everything i do...
tts y i rly rly try my best...
in studies,
in cca,
in life..
in myself...
but...
i jz cant do it...
y do i hav to cry every nite over tis...
y do i stress myself over all these....
cuz...
i dun wan to disappoint any1...
the worst thing i ever wan to do..
is the disappoint my educators..
who are my teachers, coach, aunts..
my teachers rly wan my team to win gold,
my coach too,
my aunts wan miie to study well n win gold too..
i rly try..
i rly wan...
god..
pls help miie...