so, yest was my singapore open comp.
did my personal best, comp standard.
was happy but coach keep say i shot de 8s if was 9 or 10,
then would definitely shoot higher,
i was like yeah, but it's alrdy all over,
so no point think about it anymore.

b4 the comp,
was glad i chatted with carene n xiu hong,
they're sweet n nice,
n after chatting,
i felt no pressure or stress.
i felt like in a real true team,
in a way tt i wasnt stressed.

in the end we gt 2nd for team.
1st team de score was 1109
2nd team, ours, 1100
3rd team, 1089

we were competing against OLDER ppl,
so was dam stress.
shooting with ppl frm overseas,
NYT coaches,
even with zhang.
bloody stress can !

then i gt into finals, so lucky dao....
out of the 8th ppl i was 5th position,
the top score was 378.
i gt 375,
fan xiao ping gt 375 but won me by 1 inner ten,
shows i still hav a long way to go. lols...

after finals i oso 5th place, oh welllsss...
was rly scary sia..
1st time shooting finals,
somemore i like the shortest n youngest thr ?
n i shot a 7 in my finals.
7 SIALLLL !!!
you jiao lian say if i shot a 8~10 might hav gotten better position,
lolx..haiz..
but i rly satisfied with my score alrdy. ;DDD

so after the shoot,
went hm to get rdy go gala dinner.
ppl who participate in the singapore opens can go attend the gala dinner.
so i met OJ at yio chu kang station then we go,
everyone looked amazing !!
esp geraldine,
LOVE WAT SHE DID WITH HER HAIR !
rly rly amazing,
i was blown off my feet !
i think OJ oso stun,
like, chio sial ! seriously !!
all the sec 2s n sally n bird oso looked gr8.
elegant n yet chio.
hahas.

drank wine, beer, lolx.
bird looked like drunkard sia, red red.
wen yi oso, hahahas.
then had some performances,
OF ALL THE PPL IN THE GOD DAM ROOM,
SUAY SUAY I TIO GO DUNNO WAT BELLY DANCE !

at least OJ oso tio larhhs, LOL.
didnt rly dance, i mean like, gt about a hundred ppl thr look at u BELLY DANCING SIAL.
like OMG ??
but OJ dance dao...
like no cake, LOL !!
but was more or less fun n enjoyable ? hahas.

GERALDINE SURE GET IT FRM ME !
SHE SABO ME !
at 1st is sabo OJ, then he go up 1st,
then wanted sabo carol, but she chiong out of the room le,
then all shoot me sia !

U R SO DEAD GERALDINE !!!

a short post b4 i go sch.

my event is coming soon..
i'm so scared..
despite you jiao lian n zhang jiao lian always say i can do it..
i'm still scared..
but i dunno wat i'm scared of !
thr's so many things i'm scared of..

i'm scared i would screw up
i'm scared i would pull down the team score
i'm scared i shoot badly then ppl would think zhang lousy, my sch lousy
i'm scared carene n xiu hong would blame me n hold a grudge against me if i shoot badly
i'm scared i would shoot lower then carene n xiu hong..
i'm scared i miss fire n shoot a 6 or sthing..

thr's so many things tt can happen !
i dun think anyone rly noes these thoughts r running through my head every single second..
feel hot n cold nw,
feel like my body n mind is stirring up a storm in me..literally.

wahs, 3 weeks no update le.
*shock*

well, was bloody bz.
super stressed,
shooting, life science, tuition, srp, extra lessons.
i wan die alrdy...

singapore opens is jz a few days away,
here to relief some stress.
jz nw went training,
went thr at 9am back at 8pm.
11 hrs, i goin crazy le, T.T

i rly scared i cant perform well during the comp,
then all my hard work n training would go to waste..
trying so hard to do well..
i wonder hw carene n xiu hong does it..
some ppl jz hav all the luck, T.T

i'm neglecting alot of schwork rite nw sia,
plus i will be missing sch + missing ALOT OF CHEM.
i die liao.
i can say bye to chem le.
haiz.....y so suay my comp on tuesday....
Y NT ON WED...
THEN I CAN SKIP THE BIO TECH FAIR...(LIFE SCIENCES) ZZZZZ

1st week of sch is over ~ !
tml gonna go support OJayy kor kor, LOL !!
goin watch AYG men's shoot, ;DDD
mayb can try speak with some pistol coaches,
wang yi fu mayb ?
cuz you jiao lian keep say he noe him,
can help us strike a conversation,
n his sis is back ! ;DDD !
his sis very sweet, hav a mother feel ard her,
rly nice, ;DDD

so quite excited bout tml hahahas.
jz nw went check out 2day's pistol women result,
carene shot 371,
xiu hong shot 365,
rly awesome, T.T
come on larhhs,
is AYG U NOE !!
bloody stressful n scary...
god-like ppl, *envyyyy*

china top,
0582 ZHANG Lei (CHN)
Series: 95 97 96 94
382-11x Rank 1st
sickening, =.=

INHUMAN !!
*stares at scores with envy...*

wish can shoot like her,
WAIT LONG LONG, T.T

2day had a fun yet tiring physics prac,
fong gave us 2 bricks,
we're expected to attach a number of water bottles (empty)
to make it float on the pond.
if the brick drop,
hav to retrieve it back,
so gotta tie a string on the product so can pull it back if it sinks,
but i think the string loosened, in fathin's group,
then the 1 of the bricks dropped into the bottom of the pond !!!
----SHOCKED

dunno hw they hav to go get it back..
fathin tried,
but couldnt,
she went into the pond sia, =.=
then mayank helped, :x

fong is a bad teacher who wanted us do tis god dam prac, =.=