uber happy!!
yesterday parents are back from their LONG Europe trip (fuck them, i wanna go too,  -.-)
but anyway, they bought back many stuffs for my siblings and i.
hahas, shows tt they rly care n thought bout us on their trip, (:

surprisingly my mum agreed to buy me an LV wallet!
am rly rly happy, cause last time i used to think they didnt care bout my living.
but they do...
was rly happy to c them come back.
was missing them actually, since the first few days when they left.
hahas, even bought a cake for belated father's day, :D
shared cost with my sis, hehes.
forgot to take pic of the cake, ps.... ><"!


but here are some other pics, :D





















THE OPENING. LOL! box is sooooo luxurious. LOL!!!






















ALMOST THR. xD






















TADA!! xDDD


















tis was taken yesterday, hahahahas. SO CUTE!
was supposed to be used to kp yikai, hahahahas. will find the time to show him. LOL!!

















tis was made by my dear junior, JOCELYN PEK! she IS a yaojing. LOL!!!























my DEAR JUNIOR, HAZEL HOI, wanted me to upload tis,she tot it was SOOOOO cool. LOL!! happy nw, ms hoi? hahahas.

OMG!!! YESTERDAY SO FUCKING HAPPY!! 
couldn't post yesterday cuz came hm rly late, very tired. lolx.
bought new stuffs!!!

was passing by an arcade,
u noe those machines tt have toys,
then u hav to put in a dollar coin,
the 'hands' will go down to grab/scoop the toy up?
yeah, da played it. -.-
apparently he spent like $12 dollars getting tis thing.






















hais, super waste money.
can get it for like $6 dollars outside or sthing.
but he just kept saying he knows i like tis,
so just wanted to get it for me.
n it was the money tt mattered, it was the fun in it, n well, the 'sense of achievement', LOL..
too sweet n funny to get mad at anymore.

thr was a time,
when my mum asked her fren to help buy her a Coach bag frm USA (quite frequent thing),
since her tt fren was going thr.
so after a family outing, we went to meet her fren n get her bag.
when her fren appeared with the Coach paper bag, she was screaming n jumping about like a lil girl.
*note : we were in the car, she out in front of the car, i could still hear her shrieks.*
i tot she was overreacting la, but still, it was funny n cute to c her like tt. hahas.

nw it was my turn.

was walking ard vivo city,
after finally buying my shoe bag,
Everlast one.
i felt tt Everlast shoe bag was the nicest looking.
the rest r like, ugly, boring, everyone has them, or it's all the same.
it's hard to decipher the difference between all adidas shoe bags or nike shoe bags.


so yeah, after buying the shoe bag, was walking ard, walking, walking...
then i turned my head.
i saw something.
THE VANS BAG I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET FOR AGES!!!
i literally screamed.
quickly went in to get it. xD
all the online stores selling the fucking bag onli delivers it in all the angmoh countries. zzzzz.
so pissed!!
but finally it's here in singapore!!!
but a lot of ppl would b having it, since nw it's being sold in singapore. -.-
but it's soooooo gorgeous!!!






















ty da!! for making me cheer up so much...
3 long years, but i still feel we're so very much deeply in love.
u're always thr to comfort me n make me happy when i'm down...
u take notice of the things i like..
u're willing to do anything for me..
words just cant describe our heartfelt feelings for each other..
i feel i don't need anyone anymore..
all i nid... is u...

****i'm lazy to change my url so, i don't care the opinions of others, the outcome after ppl read tis, or whatsoever. tis is my blog. whr I, ME, MYSELF, get to pour MY feelings into. just fuck off if u're nt happy reading tis. 

nvr in my life hav i ever gotten a individual first gold medal.
i finally did.
in the NUSIS.
i'm just a lil happy.
bcuz to me, i'm just gonna continue working hard to get other individual medals.
i don't wan tis to b my last first individual gold.

today was the prize presentation.
half of me rly wanted to collect the medal, bcuz it's my very first individual first gold.
it holds a lot of sentimental value to me.
after years of working so hard, i finally gotten first individual first gold.

the other half of me didnt want to collect it.
bcuz i was the only one thr.
thr were no other AISS peep thr. AT ALL.
idk wat others might think, like, 'wah, AISS so hao lian. win medal dun wan collect.'
i dont giv a fuck.

but...when my team/seniors/juniors r thr,
tts what makes it fun, having a prize presentation..
going out thr, collecting tgt, perhaps camwhoring afterwards..
laughs, giggles..i've been hoping for tt..
but alas..they werent coming down..

idk to feel mad or hurt...mayb both..
but i know i left the shooting grounds with a heavy heart..watery eyes..throat painful frm the choking of tears..
all my mixed emotions overwhelmed me..
n to think i even walked thru the rain, under the blazing sun to get thr, hoping they're coming down..
such a fool..

i noe... it's stupid to cry over such trivial things.. but.. is it wrg for me to feel sad?.. mayb to yall, it is.. i dont care anymore.

i dun wan to hear any sorries or see any sorries. because, it's over.

i can't wait to get out of AISS. even though it's a sch, renowned for it's shooting achievements,
it doesn't mean anything. achievements don't last forever. the bond shared among the ppl does.

i feel tainted. disgusted with my own sch. once i'm out of thr. i'm NEVER. EVER. setting foot into tt god forsaken place again.

i wish we were more like NJ.. they come n go tgt, a REAL team.
the bond they share r unbelievably strong.
i wan to try building a bond among ourselves, nt like theirs, mayb just half, but.
i guess it isn't possible.

trying to be nice sometimes rly don't get u anywhere.
neither does being a bitch.
but trying to be nice takes more effort.
i rather be a bitch.

no longer do i hav to waste my time, energy on others.
i can b selfish too. to get what i wan. i'll say the meanest of things if i hav to.
sacrifice anything, or anyone. if i hav to. make use of anyone or anything.

time n time again,
the feeling of being hurt has lived with me.
that's the last straw.

watch out world.
the nice shan is gone. forever.

idk y, but i'm now having some resolutions.

1. QUIT FACEBOOK GAMES.
it's my 2nd day nt playing them. YAY!

2. after training, go hm write, SHOOTING JOURNAL.
still nt used to it. lolx.

3. read more storybooks.
i reminisce the days whr i used to read books everyday, in primary sch. LOL.

4. clean laptop frequently.
recently bought gd n cheap laptop cleaning kit. $5 for a TOTALLY SEXY, BRAND NEW LOOKING, SLICK, GLOSSY, GLAMOROUS, GLITTERING, MESMERIZING, BREATHTAKING, STUNNING, GORGEOUS laptop.
plus, i finally took out all those plastic protection tt has been thr since the day it was taken out frm the box. xD
going get the screen protector soon. like finally. LOL.

wow, it has almost been a MONTH since i've blogged!!
i just happen to realise i forgot i HAD a blog. LOL!!

just now, had nth to do...
facebook is kinda down, so i had nth to do, then realised i hav a blog. LOL!

finally finished the 'Skip Beat' manga, 157 FREAKING CHAPTERS!
took so long to finish, cuz i pause in between very long, lolx.
then suddenly went check the new updates, had to read a few chapters of 'Ai Kora'. wth. -.-

but well, nth much happened, MYE results were horrid.
idk if can pass NJ's requirements. hais.
after MYE, still hav NJ's freaking GAT n AAT. ARGHS.
making zx print out samples for me to practise. since he keep bugging me to find samples n practise, -.-

yamiing n blogging now, hmmmm.....so nice. lolx.

my blog is no longer entertaining le i think.
my life is getting more boring by the day.
n when i REALLY go in JC, lagi worse,
will b UBER BORING. hais.........................................sian.